Seeing through the eyes of others.

One of the great things about modern technology is the ability to communicate effortlessly through the Internet. When you get the time, spend a couple of minutes and watch the videos below.They are some of my micro lectures, my personal thoughts on addiction, recovery and living.
Something might resonate with you. It's not about the big "Ah Ha" moment. It's about the subtle realization of your situation and how it applies to your life.
Sometimes, through the honesty of others you can see through their eyes and realize that seed.

Truth ... that's the truth

If I am not true with myself how can I know who I am .. what I am .. what I have become and what I want to be as I move forward ..

shame ..

There is no shame in addiction or so I am told but believing that is another story . Until I believe in that how can I believe in myself ...

Regret is something I cannot live with ..

I don't want to go through the rest of my life regretting my past..I don't want to bring that with me into my future ..

The loss of my friend...

Alcohol was my friend, my companion but  I had to give it up. In doing so I lost my lover and had to mourn that loss ... 

Is it my nature ...

One of my big questions to myself has always been ..is since I am a drunk am I going against who I am by stopping drinking  ..

Things I cannot explain ...

There are so many things that have happened thorough out my drinking that I just cannot explain ... even the thought that I am in some form of recovery ..

what the hell did I do ...

That feeling of waking up the next day and wondering what the hell did I do last night was so  gut wrenching that I knew I needed to take action but was that the right reason ...

no matter where I go I'm always there ..

Where ever I go my addiction comes with me. The fact is, I have to learn to be comfortable with my addiction, to accept it and as long as it's there, enjoy who it's made me ...